2nd Pregnancy Week 20

Is it me or am I somehow more emotionally volatile during this second pregnancy?  I remember being emotional during the first pregnancy, but surely not to this extent.

Hubby’s dog died recently – it wasn’t as if I was particularly close to him – but I bawled my eyes when it happened.  When my SIL started crying, I cried, too.

I had a little tiff with hubby – just one of those usual squabbles that husbands and wives usually run into from time to time – and the dam burst as if we were having a major tiff.  Heck, I can remember the days when even a major tiff couldn’t get a tear rolling, and now look at me!

I was reading a book and I started sobbing – I wasn’t even crying any more – I was sobbing!  I watch something on TV and it makes me cry – and it drives me insane because hubby finds it so amusing and I feel like cuffing him for it.

And that’s not all.  I was walking through a department store recently and for no reason at all, I felt as if I was about to cry.  Now what the heck is all that about?

It’s not just the crying.  My temper seems a little short fused, too.  Admittedly, I was always a bit of a hot-head in my younger days, but I thought becoming a parent seemed to have mellowed me out quite a bit.  Not so if you have seen the way I’ve reacted over little things lately.

Aside from the uncontrolled emotions, I also seem excessively anxious.  They say that having been through pregnancy once before makes it easier the second time.  Well, for some reason, I feel even more apprehensive about the delivery this time around.  During the first pregnancy, I’m sure I managed to put all thoughts about the delivery out of my head until I was almost ready to pop.  Lately, all I can think about is the delivery and I can’t say the thoughts are particularly positive ones.

Is it my emotional state affecting me, or am I just becoming more fearful with age?  During the last doctor’s appointment, Dr Wong took a blood sample from me.  Ordinarily, I don’t sweat it about needles – I don’t like them, but I reckon I handle them pretty well.  But that time, I felt so tense, I was starting to sweat at the thought of the needle drawing my blood.

Psychological effects aside, here are the physical developments to date:

  • My hairfall cycles have decreased dramatically and my hair does feel great.  Even when I don’t do much to it, it still looks a lot better than it did before I got pregnant.
  • Starting to feel a general apathy about food with occasional madness for specific things that go through phases.  For instance, I had an enormous soya bean craze and couldn’t get enough of it.  I could have been content eating nothing but Tofu Fa.  However, that phase has since passed and I think I’m pretty over it.
  • Despite only being five months pregnant, I feel like I’m at least seven months gone.  I move like it and I have the energy levels like it.  I hate to think how much bigger I’m going to be when I really get there.
  • Whether it is due to my size or the fact that I’m still co-sleeping with a toddler, sleeping seems to be rather uncomfortable.  I wake up with a lower back ache sometimes even though there has been nothing odd about the way I slept (at least – not that I am aware of).
  • Energy levels are down considerably, which might be due to the fact that I’m under the weather with a cold (don’t worry, not Swine Flu – no fever, chills or aches).  Considering that Gavin has the same bug, I’m surprised by how well he’s taking it.  I certainly look a lot worse for wear.
  • My belly has finally surpassed that of the hubby’s.

As you can see, I no longer chase Gavin around the playground but have enlisted my SIL’s boyfriend to do that task for me.


Published by Shen-Li

SHEN-LI LEE is the author of “Brainchild: Secrets to Unlocking Your Child’s Potential”. She is also the founder of Figur8.net (a website on parenting, education, child development) and RightBrainChild.com (a website on Right Brain Education, cognitive development, and maximising potentials). In her spare time, she blogs on Forty, Fit & Fed, and Back to Basics.

2 thoughts on “2nd Pregnancy Week 20

  1. I cried at everything when I was pregnant! And was super anxious and stressed. I never knew it could be so taxing emotionally! Hang in there SL 🙂


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